Flowchart to explain my recent existential depression

primary conflict: i know i’m insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but i need to believe i’m talented (aka special) in some way to motivate myself to try. why (is this a problem)? 1.   the odds are stacked against me due to my: i. non-traditional (read: non-straightcisrichwhitemale) life trajectory ii. race/gender/class/sexual orientation/disability and i’m […]

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Parable of the Sower

To get to the future, you will need a map: the importance of vision and ideology in Parable of the Sower (and real life)

The white male founders of the United States lived in a world that was not at all one where all men were equal, or where all men had the same access to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness—and for the most part, they were perfectly happy with this reality. Their idealized vision of themselves […]

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Octavia Butler cover art by John Jude Palancar

The future will set you free: themes of regression and progression in Octavia Butler’s work

Human societies are constantly struggling between the past and the future, rarely fully inhabiting the present. We see evidence of this conflict today more plainly than ever, as climate change threatens humanity’s long-term survival while U.S. politics is preoccupied with the fallout of loss of white male status. The slogans of populist politicians of today […]

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the master's tools will never dismantle the master's house, but they WILL build a kick ass shed miles away, in the woods.

Using the master’s tools to build a shack outside so you can be alone (aka navigating disability gatekeeping in the educational system)

Even before I stopped taking medication, I stopped going to therapy. I didn’t have a therapist through most of the withdrawal process; only at the very beginning did I seek out a psychologist because I thought it would be safe. But I just found myself arguing with her, as we had such different worldviews and […]

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